poundage

*IT* happened!  I went in for my monthly doctor visit today and I knew it was going to happen, but I still am a little kljaser;aiweur[o  about it.  That's right there aren't words for it just yet.

I did my blood pressure/weigh in with the nurse (super sweet Christian lady).  I saw the scale and FREAKED!!!!!!!!!!  Are you effing kidding me?!??  That's what I weigh?  Are you sure you're doing this thing right?  ACK!!!!!

I jumped 9 pounds this month.  I really wasn't trying hard NOT to add the pounds, but I thought I was being good and making good choices.  Alright so I slacked on the exercise...who doesn't?  So I had Taco Bell that one night...who wouldn't?  So I bought a small thing of Ben & Jerry's....DUH!  I only had one very small piece of cake at Alice's birthday party....just one...I swear!

I really, really wanted to only gain 4-5 pounds this month.  I should have known though, with my genes (haha, I almost put jeans), I would pack on the pounds in double.  There's always next month to work harder at it.  The sad part is, you can't lose weight when pregnant and you can't go back and correct it.  Once the pounds are on, they're on and there's no turning back.  I have to gain another 4-5 pounds this month.  All for the baby (ooo!  he just kicked me! :)

I've put on 17 pounds since becoming pregnant and I told myself I was really going to stick to the 30-35 that the doctor recommends.  YIKES!!  I gotta start really focusing.  It'll be easier when this DARN rainy season is over.  I love walking outside, but can't do it right now.  It'll also be easier when the musical that I'm directing is over.  I won't be so exhausted and will actually make it to the gym 3-4 times a week instead of 1 time a week.  OUCH!!

I know it's not all about the weight you gain.  I know it's healthy for the baby for me to gain weight.  I'm not trying to complain and PLEASE notice that not one single time did I say I was fat or ugly or not cute.  I don't think any of those things (BIG grown-up step for me).  I am proud of the baby bump I have.  I'm doing everything I can to keep this baby happy and healthy inside of me (dude...there's a LIVING being inside of me...still gives me the biggest smile ever!)  This little baby is going be the most amazing boy ever!  I want to be as healthy as possible to have the energy to play and run and laugh and dance.  That means focusing on the poundage :)

I'm going to be an energetic, fun, HOT momma!!!!

What's in a name

My husband and I are starting to talk (a lot) about names!  I'm so excited for this part of the journey and SOOOO not looking forward to it.  I had a list a mile long of baby girl names that I absolutely adore!  However, God has given us a boy (which I am so thrilled with!!!!)and baby boy names on the HARDEST things to come up with.  I've started researching names on line.  I've looked at books as I pass by them.  I listen everywhere I go for boy names to be called out.  I've even thought about it as I'm going through student files at work.  I've only come up with one that I sort of like.  Hubby likes it too.  But I'm just not thrilled about it. 

I love my name.  My parents did an amazing job at choosing names for me and my 3 siblings.  They are perfect for us.  I couldn't imagine a sister or brother with a different name. 

I know I have 4 more months to go, but it's hitting me just how hard this journey can be.  I want my son to adore his name.  I want it to fit him perfectly.  I want to be able to bless him with a name that (hopefully) won't get too much teasing from the other kids in his class. 

To my friends that are parents:  How did you come up with your children's names?  Web?  Book?  Family member?

Milestones

Today, I got to check off a major milestone in pregnancy.  I've actually already completed it as of Wednesday last week, but just got around to it today.  :)  I'm already trying to adapt to life with a child, the "I'll get to that soon" becomes "I finally got to that 2 weeks later."  LOVING it! hahah

Today, I checked off the major milestone of feeling babies first kick.  YAY!  The first real kick I felt and instinctively knew it was a kick was at the super scary second ultrasound.  It was God's way of reassuring my that my baby is fine and healthy.  Sweet pea apparently did not like the ultrasound technician pushing so hard with the tool to try to get him to move out of the position he was in.  Do be honest, I would have been upset to.  I had just rolled on my left side while the tech pushed my belly and then rolled on my right side while she pushed some more.  Then I lay on my back and the tech shoves the ultrasound contraption half way through my body to see if she can get sweet pea to stay in the position we worked so hard for. Then it happened.

I am looking at the monitor, I see his bum and his 'thing-a-ding-ding' (FRIENDS quote) and his legs.  His leg moved really quickly to one side and at the very same instance I felt the first kick!!  How amazing is that!?!  I not only got to feel his first kick, I watched it too.

See, I told you it was God's steady reassurance!!

Followers? Lack of?

Today, I doubt myself.

Today, I wonder why I STILL only have 10 followers.

I'm a neat person, I'm an interesting person. 

I know my blog isn't always that interesting, but seriously!?!

What's a girl got to do to get a few more followers?

The question is out there for anyone to answer, just go easy on me! :)

What is the key to having a blog that is followed by more than 10 people?

Love...

is strong
knows no limits
is uncontrollable
is scary
is powerful
is felt in a kick to the inside of the belly
is emotional
is a verb
comes in surges
stops your heart from beating
causes you to wake up in the middle of the night wondering
is hopeful
does not demand anything
is self-less, self-sacrificial, self-giving
is the fluttering of my heart when I see my sweet pea on the ultrasound screen


is all-consuming!

Fear is not from God

Friday I had my 20 week ultrasound.  I got to see the baby for an hour and 15 minutes. It was pure bliss. That’s the good news.
 
I got a call this morning from the radiologists’ office saying that I need to come back in on Wednesday for more ultrasound pictures. The office assistant didn’t say what the reason was and told me that most of the time it’s just because they didn’t get a clear picture and need to try for more clear pictures. For about 2 hours I cried and prayed to the Father that everything was okay. I was so anxious and scared that something was wrong with my sweet pea! I talked to my mom and she told me to call the radiologist himself to figure out the reasoning behind the second appointment. I was too anxious and needed reassurance that everything was okay or that I needed to call me doctor to find out more information.

When I talked to the radiologist, he said that so far everything looks fine, but they didn’t have clear pictures of the kidneys and some of the other organs so they just needed to get more clear pictures. He tried to assure me that there is probably no reason to worry, that sweet pea was in a weird position and it was just hard to get good pictures.

My heart is just a little heavier right now then it was on Friday and I am calling out to my loved ones to pray. Pray for peace in my heart and that the devil will not use fear to trap me in the lies that God is not in control. Pray for sweet pea’s health and that his little body is protected by the Almighty Father.

I know He knows exactly what is going on. I know He has already prepared me to handle anything that life deals me. I need to keep reminding myself of this.

it's official...we know!

Yes...that's right.  We know the gender of our little sweet pea.  Here's the story:

We had our 20 week ultrasound on Friday.  The first question we were asked by the ultrasound technician was, "Do you or do you not want know the gender of your baby?"  I said no right away.  For the last 15 weeks I've known I wanted to be surprised.  I talked about it with my sweet husband and we had come to that agreement.  We both didn't want to know.  Well, that's what I thought.

45 minutes into the appointment, the ultrasound technician looked at me and said "Okay, I'm moving into the crotch region so look away."  I looked away, toward my husband, and noticed that he was NOT looking away.  I was in shock for one second.  What are you doing?  You're not looking away?  Why aren't you looking away???  What he said next was very simple, but rocked my world.  "I want to know!  I'm looking!"  

WHAT?!?!  But we talked about this, we agreed on this, we....well, we nothing..apparently it was all me.  So in the very next second, I turned my head back to the screen and looked just in time for the ultrasound tech to type out...

I know it's a hard picture to see, but I'll try to help out.  Just imagine you are holding a baby over your head and looking at the bottom of the bum. The top left of the body is my baby's little bum :)  Then, on the opposite side... you guessed it.  My boy isn't shy, he's letting it all hang out.  So his legs are heading out to the top and bottom of the screen.  I hope that helps.

Since we know the gender now, we are just keeping the name options a secret.  Of course, we won't decide the name 100% until we meet our son, but we'll have some options picked out. :)

So, there you have it.  It's a boy!!

20 week ultrasound!

 On Friday, I had my wonderful amazing 20 week ultrasound.  This was the day I'd been waiting for my entire pregnancy.  The day I get to see my baby for an entire hour moving, squirming, waving, kicking.   Rolando came with me and we had a wonderful time watching Sweet Pea!  We got a few great pictures. 

Sweet Pea is laying face up.  Look at Rolando's nose on that baby!

At least we know Sweet Pea has five toes!  We'll wait to see the other 5 in 20 weeks :)

It's hard to see but, bottom right, thumb is pointing up and fingers are out to the right.

There's more news to come, but that will have to wait for another day.

Treasures of Life

I have listened to this video about 30 times since yesterday morning. That's my baby!!! :)